John 21: 1-6,12-16
Acts 9:11-6, 10-18
“Lord, I have already heard from many about this man.”
The young boy who was playing at our house came to the kitchen where I was making dinner. He looked at the plate I had set up for him and said “I don’t like that.”
“What?” I asked.
“That.” he said pointing to the plate.
“Do you even know what it is? It’s good, Jacob. It tastes good.”
He mumbled “No, I don’t like it” looking up at his brother who was shaking his head no and grinning mischievously. Jacob began to slide down from the table, looking for a place to hide.
“Have you ever had it before?” I turned to ask. He was gone.
That was Ananias when he was speaking to God about Saul. “Lord, I have already heard from many about this man.” He had heard the stories about how Saul from Tarsus was rounding up people who professed faith in Jesus. Saul, to put it plainly was a dangerous bully who harassed, beat up and even killed people of “the Way” out of loyalty to his own religion. Ananias was fearful of this man, with good reason; his actions were sanctioned by the chief priest of the synagogue. He could do what he wanted without punishment. But God wanted Ananias to engage with Saul because God had a different spin on it. God was transforming Saul into an instrument to bring the name of Jesus to Gentiles, Kings and other people of Israel.
Ananias was saying, “I don’t like that.” The difference between Jacob and Ananias was that the mature one stayed at the table for the conversation to see what benefit was beyond his resistance. The young boy did not take any risk on something he might not like, something that might be uncomfortable, something that might ask more of him than he was willing to do.
Many of us resist putting ourselves forward for God’s purposes because it might ask more of us than we’re willing to give. But, it is our willingness to step into the unknown, into the field of all possibilities, in total surrender to God’s way, that makes change possible. We need to be able to see, not from our old perspective, with it’s limitations and ego based fear but from a new view point. One where we can take a leap of faith and trust in God.
I asked our Tuesday Prayer Circle if something had ever happened to them that initially they interpreted one way but after some time, and maybe conversations with others, they had come to see it in a different way. Each of them could site such an experience. The comment was made that you wrestle and worry, get angry or depressed until you realize that your own efforts have failed so badly you finally call upon a higher power.
Our friend, Reuben in Kenya, told the story of his two brothers and one sister-in-law, who died within months of each other, and he had to take in their children. He had two young children of his own, but now had to manage a home with six children. The other four were older than his own. So, he was parenting children in an age he had little experience with. He had to feed and clothe them adding expenses to the already challenging situation. And, he and his wife, Grace, had the task of guiding and disciplining someone else’s children. They were family but still they had been raised by other adults so far. He felt overwhelmed but decided to pray and rely on God which helped a great deal. He realized he could make it with God’s help. He was willing to open his heart to Christ and trust that God was with them.
The disciples in the John passage weren’t so sure that Christ was with them. Jesus had been crucified. He was physically gone and they were left on their own to continue his work. They didn’t quite know what to do now. Peter falls back into the life he had known. He announces, “I’m going fishing.” (I know how to do that. I’ve had some success in it. At least I can feed myself.) Likewise, the other disciples joined him. They knew what to expect, it was familiar, it didn’t tax them too much. They didn’t have to learn a new skill. But, they weren’t successful this time. They expended all this energy and did not get a good return on their investment.
Then this guy shows up whom they don’t recognize at first, and suggests they fish from the other side of the boat. What happens? They catch more than they can haul in! because they were willing to do things a different way!
We find our churches are in the same boat (pardon the pun). Attendance and participation in churches were declining before the pandemic, but losing the regular practice of coming to church each week has been devastating. Not just for the programs and financial life of the church but for the individuals who have lost their sense of belonging and their sense of connection to God. We can look at the expectations and responsibility of being part of a congregation, but that’s just one way to look at our membership. We can also see that these habits of attending, praying together, studying, and serving are spaces for transformation. Instead of building walls around our time and our abilities, how about we erase the barriers we’ve put up that have kept us from connecting with one another and with God.
Maybe we’ve been resistant because we don’t trust that, underneath it all, God is doing something new here. Are we relying on our on cleverness, our own resources which we perceive as limited? We have experienced trauma in the past two and a half years; and we’re exhausted! But, God is able! If we’re willing to turn to God to ask for help, we might see things from a new perspective. We are restarting. We are able to design from scratch. There are people in the Etown area wanting to hear a word of hope.
Saul had certainly been unwilling to accept the new way, the new teachings that Jesus died for. Here in this story, Ananias was in a ticklish spot, a fearful task lay ahead. Jesus was calling upon him to visit a man whose reputation of religious zeal and violence preceded him. He was to stand in from of Saul, lay hands on him and restore his sight. I’m sure Ananias was thinking of the danger he was walking into when Saul would regain his vision. What Ananias couldn’t appreciate yet was that God had converted Saul’s heart. Christ had struck Saul down and literally brought him to his knees. He was in “time out” and awaiting God’s favor through Ananias.
The kind of trust required of Ananias is not easy to give, even for those of us who want to. Our egos resist it. Our society rewards those who take charge, those who are decisive and cunning, strategic. But, when you find yourself on your knees, like Saul was, the only place we can turn to is the higher power of God who may be saying look at things from a different perspective.
In our yoga practice, there are positions that put us upside down, giving us a chance to look at the world from a different point of view, literally. The challenge is to find your footing, stay steady and strong even when the world tries to knock you off balance Being strong in your foundation, sure of what you believe, grounded in the truth of God’s promises, provides the support you need, especially when coming out of the Covid pandemic. You can count on your relationships within the congregation to keep you connected in faith. These are the bonds you have formed when you spent time together in study, in prayer, in play and in service. You helped one another.
Saul took three days to consider God’s point of view for his new life. He came out with a new perspective, a new job, and a new name - Paul. But, he didn’t come out on his own power. God sent Ananias, who ALSO was seeing from a new perspective. He even referred to Saul, the former bully as ‘brother’. My prayer is that we, like Ananias, can say: Lord, change my heart so I can see things with your eyes .
So, how can we practice seeing a another’s perspective? When I think about talking with an elected official to ask them to work on fair housing. I not only think about how that makes me nervous but also about seeing formerly homeless moms and dads providing secure and loving homes for their children. Seeing those children grow up in stable neighborhoods and do well in school because they go home to the same place every day. In years to come, those children graduate and find good jobs or go on to higher education or military service becoming good citizens.
Similarly, when we serve at Wittel Farm, we can think about how muddy or hot or sore we might be after working in the garden. But, if we think of providing nutritious produce for families who are food insecure, then the effort becomes about ‘all of us’. May our prayer be, God stir our minds and hearts so we can perceive a larger picture like Saul did.
May it be so. Amen.
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